People do change. Personal transformation is hard work, but it has its rewards.
I told my spirit guides that I was interested in energy healing work only if it was going to be fun. And it has been.
But it didn’t start out that way.
I was always intuitive. My dreams, visions, feelings, and thoughts were strong but unfocused. I felt other people’s emotions and heard their thoughts when I didn’t want to. I also had problems accepting how different I was from everyone.
Imagine minding your own business then suddenly feeling impatient or suicidal. I’ve been there. It ain’t fun.
My abilities started expanding in 2001. I second guessed everything and dismissed all the messages. By 2008, I was crying all the time. I was experiencing my own unresolved emotional problems as well as the many others who were not in the room with me.
I dreamed of tragic events around the world before they happened. I hate having my sleep interrupted. I spent my days tired and irritated.
Hitting A Brick Wall Helped
My breaking point came in 2011 when I almost assaulted a woman. Daily meditation and two books — Reconciliation and Love Is A Choice — helped me identify, work through, and release a lot of emotional issues. Specifically, I had to release fear, sugar addiction, and unresolved issues with my dad. All three were connected.
As I healed, my abilities became more manageable. I could discern my thoughts and feelings from others. I stopped dreaming of future events, but people who were transitioning (my word for died) came to me in my dreams to let me know they were crossing over.
But, I still needed help. Studying metaphysics, psychic mediumship, and doing psychic exercises helped tremendously. Getting reiki attunements helped me focus my abilities. It also made things a little weird.
Angels, spirit guides, animal guides, ascended masters, and other spirits started introducing themselves to me. Then there were those out of body experiences at night that required me to rest for part of the day. I still astral travel but I understand it better.
I didn’t know that agreeing to do energy healing work meant being open to the unknown. This was hard in the beginning because I was a control freak.
Living Life Anew
I am not the person that I was in 2001. I’m barely the person that I was at the beginning of 2016. Whenever something comes up, I can identify where it comes from. I call it my emotional excavation. Now the reward is enjoying the treasures found in the dig. (Yeah, I went there. I have a master’s degree in applied anthropology.)
I have more time to do what I love: vegan cooking, drawing, resting, hanging out with friends, teaching people how to develop their psychic abilities, and writing paranormal urban fantasy.
This life feels more aligned with my soul.