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What I Learned About Myself Living In France

Taking a leap of faith garnered unexpected healing and abilities

It’s Time To Let Go of Old Energy
I let go of enough fear to move to France but I still navigated the world with old habits. I met the same kind of people, which resulted in the results. Once I let go I had more time for myself and more of my Truth started to surface. Living my Truth meant everything from before no longer fit into my life, including fear. This left me open for more abundance and prosperity, which does not look like I expected.

My Morning Spiritual Practice Is Important
House and pet sitting taught me that I need to spend the mornings grounding my energy and focusing on taking care of myself first before sharing my energy. I love animals and will have a cat of my own, but, for now, self-love is a priority. No compromises. The right cat will enter my life when I have ‘mastered’ taking care of me. Plus, I can care for stray cats until that time comes.

Being Vegan Is Spiritual
Living a vegan lifestyle Living a vegan lifestyle changed my relationship with food. I went vegetarian in 2008 then vegan in 2015. Both transitions helped me understand myself, my relationship to food and the emotional impact of having cravings.

I hear my Higher Self more on a vegan diet. Spirit nudged me to go raw for detox reasons. Honestly, I resisted but understood afterwards. Living vegan in a country that cherishes cheese and pork helped me focus inward and honor the lifestyle that allows me to have fewer health issues and be led by messages of love.

My Vibe Attracts My Tribe
I hung out at the ‘golden arches’ a lot because it has free WiFi. They operate differently in Paris, playing house music, serving cheesecake, and staying open late. I love house music, but I released cheesecake and everything else that the restaurant serves, and I’m usually in bed early. I met nice people, but they aren’t my tribe. I missed out meeting my tribe because I wanted to be online. In order to experience the capacity of my healing I needed to be in the park around nature and those who enjoy it too.

My tribe hangs out in yoga and meditation studios, art galleries, vegan stores and restaurants, independent film theatres and in parks. Now that I’m temporarily back in the U.S. that’s where people will find me.

Be Specific About What I Want
Thoughts and feelings create our reality. When I’m vague about what I want or have fear, I manifest what I need but it’s not satisfactory. If I want a one-bedroom apartment in a particular area (Saint-Germain-des-Pres, s’il vous plait et merci) then that’s what I need to affirm rather than only asking for a place in France. I get what I ask for and how deserving of it I feel.

I Am Worthy of Abundance and Prosperity
I had an issue with receiving. I noticed it when I was house and pet sitting. People homes to me and stated that I was welcome to anything. I felt guilty about eating the food they left. When I had this discovery I worked with Spirit to work through that stagnated energy. I let go. I affirm every day now: I am worthy of receiving abundance and prosperity.

Poetry

dharma is a boat

moving forward on an airplane from history to new endeavors carries a kilogram of anxiety.

cumulus clouds
casting shadows on the land
growing shades of green.

there are some things from the past worth accessing to feel grounded.

ancient sanskrit texts
penetrate my inner child
with loving patience.

internal waters
run deep, flowing over land,
turning it into stones…

that are safe to traverse
after years of practice,
sitting,
walking,
sipping on wild crafted herbs
calming flesh
so the soul can speak.

montreuil, île-de-france
8 july 2017